For these next few months of school im trying to keep it together but I want this school year to be over with already. I seriously don't have motivation to do anything. I just wanna enjoy my last little bit of my high school life. I'm not to scared to grow up and do things on my own because I have already been doing that. The only disappointment I have is not being moved out after graduation. But good things come with time so I'm not that upset. 

I started a new job this weekend and honeslty I fell in love with it. Maria was working that night too and we work like across the street from eachother so after she got off she came and visited me. Oh I love Maria ❤️ But the atmosphere is so different from what I'm used to, I'm still kindof working with fast food but no grease is involved which is sooooo good. The people I work with now are so different from what I'm used to. I'm just liking the vibe it had going. 

My goal is to meet chris brown this summer God please make that happen 😩😩

Isn't finding a good job or even a job hard? You end up having to grow up and take some responsibility and as much as you think you are prepared for it you never really are. For me getting a job right when I was 16 was really important. And I did it. I was hired at 15. I was tired of not having money, of always having to ask for money, so I decided to just do something about it. The whole process is the hardest, well I think so. You have to apply to so many places and sit for a call. I remember when I first started applying I applied to so many places and I didn't get one call. It sucked.  My aunt had told me to apply to McDonald's but I was like oh no I'm not going to work there. I'm not going to be that person who works at mcdonalds. Which is so funny now because that's how most of us think. Working at McDonald's is basically known for people who didn't finsih school or has nothing going for them in life, which is soooo not true. But at that time that's what I thought, but finally I just applied. A little while after I finally got a call and I was the happiest person. Now I just needed to prepare for my interview. Interviews are so weird, it's like you have to basically sell yourself. You go in there trying to make yourself seem so much better just to get this job. Which I did a great job at apparently.  But I think even the managers try to make theirselves seem better. Because my old boss was so nice in my interview and I was sooo happy for that but when I  started working he is the biggest "b" word ever.  Working at mcdoanlds for almost two years was horrible but so fun at the same time. I made so many new friends. I made so much money because mcdonalds was like my 2nd home & I made a lot of good memories there. But after awhile trying to find a new job was so important. So here I am going through the process once again. Which sucks. Go to college get yourself a high paying career so you don't need to jump from job to job.

So if you all didn't know I have this really bad addiction to coffee. Like I seriously have to have it every day. When I first started drinking coffee I would have so much energy and I would even want to run (when running isn't my thing). But now I have don't feel that way. It just makes me feel like myself. Its funny because when I'm upset or something I need a coffee to calm down.
When people tell me they don't like coffee obviously they aren't drinking the right kind of coffee.
The best coffee place is Daily Rise. Honestly they make the best coffee there. My favorite are "That's what she said"and "Vanilla Lace". They both taste the best when they are blended, its like you can taste the favor really well. But I'm not too picky I can drink it hot, on the rocks or blended. I prefer to go buy my coffee than make it af home, I don't know why because it's so much cheaper that way but it doesn't taste the same! I honestly spend the most of my money on coffee. Which is horrible. It's honeslty a drug and I can't stop. I try to stop and cut back but it's so impossible because I need my coffee in my hands at all times. Some people can drink it only in the mornings but I can drink it all day throughout the day it's just the best thing ever invented, honestly. Buy me some coffee and I'll love you forever

I still have a chance with C.B.

Lately it's like one thing goes good and right after something bad happens. My last two months of HighSchool and my life is on a roller coaster. My grandpa went home a little after his surgery and went right back in. It's so hard to see him like this. He is the strongest man I have ever met and he honesty gives my family so much meaning. I'm pretty sure all of you guys see your grandparents as someone special, and once they live it's the hardest thing. The best thing will be having my grandpa go to my graduation. That would mean everything to me. I don't think my family will ever be able to say goodbye.
Sadly I won't be moving out like I planned since like freshman year 😂. Finding a good job at 17 is the hardest thing ever. I get it but at the same time it gets me so fustrated. I won't be trying 18 till July so I guess I will working my butt off till then.
I never really thought about college a lot till now. And I'm so excited. I ready to be able to try something different. It's going to be so good to be getting out of this little hell we call school. I'm so excited to meet so much more people. I will be at every party. Every game. Everything. I'm going to make these next years everything. Before I start my career, start my family, I want to finally live i i never really got to live throughout my teenage years, but college will be my start.
KYILE AND TYGA. I mean its like not so bad right? Age is nothing but a number.. But I mean if it's okay for them to date then that means I still have a chance. I'm going to stock.. I mean meet chris brown and make him fal in love(; we will be the cutest couple ever.