Thursday, May 14, 2015

So we did it.
Today is our last Thursday, our last time in some classes and it still hasn't really hit me.

I'm not sad that I'm done with high school, or sad about growing up and moving on with life but its kind of sad never coming back at the end of the summer and seeing the same people most of us have seen for years. I think I'm more sad to graduating without some people who I feel should be here. Like Parker, Alfonso, Frannie, and Myles. They should be with us and they aren't that is what is sad.

I remember when I was a freshman and how excited I was to start High School, those years passed by so fast and I wish I was more involved then I was. I never allowed myself to really get close to anyone other than a few people, which is a good and bad thing. It sucks because I don't have tons of memories with my senior class but at least it wont be tough when we all go our different ways.

I think everything will hit me once I walk. But I don't think I'll be sad, I think I will be so proud of myself for finally being done with high school. I wasn't the perfect student, I got lazy, I didn't get straight A's but I did work hard and I feel like I accomplished more then I thought. In my family there were 3 other cousins and my brother I was growing up with and I was the 3rd oldest, and I'm going to be the 1st to graduate on time and with good grades, and the 1st to go to college. I finished high school without getting in trouble like most of my family. I finished high school without having a baby like my parents. Im very proud of proving a lot of people wrong. And I'm not done yet, I plan on graduating college and having a successful career.

So these last few days aren't going to be sad necessarily, they are just going to make things a lot more real of what I've accomplished and what I have to look forward to in my future. For all of my classmates I hope you never give up on your dream. I hope you accomplished everything you want and more, we all deserve nothing but the best. So I hope none of us settle for less.

Forever you guys will be in my heart. THE CLASS OF 2015


Friday, April 24, 2015

So last Saturday was Prom ( well I'm sure everyone knows that). But anyways it was honestly a really good dance! Everyone looked amazing, seriously its fun seeing everyone dress up. I got tired really though, which sucks. Waking up at 4:30 is not the business. I really thought that prom wasn't going to be fun, and especially because it was going to be at megaplex. But it was amazing, the food was good, the decorations were amazing and most of the music was good! 

In a way its kind of sad that we are getting closer to the end. But I think I'm more excited than anything. I'm really tired of waiting for school to be over though. Like I'm done already and I want to just graduate. I have no motivation to do anything what so ever. I honestly think I stopped caring about everything at this point. I only do work at school, I'll take some home and say I'll do it but in reality it will not get done at home. 

16 days to go. 

Friday, April 17, 2015

So prom is tomorrow and I'm really excited but then again I'm not to excited. I have mixed emotions. I spent a lot of time trying to find a dress, I tried to get it done ahead of time I couldn't have to struggle last minute. But somehow I ended up doing most of everything last minute. I got my dress Sunday ( Ogden stores suck), I got my mask on Monday but made on Thursday, I also got my shoes on Thursday. It kind of feels like I'm way to much work into this, but I want to have this night to remember. This is my first and last prom. And honestly I'm going to one angry little person if Prom isn't amazing, especially for it being so much money. But I might be really strung on coffee that day so we will see how everything works out because I will be up at 4 a.m. that day for work :( But I just want tomorrow to be amazing, hopefully it will be a night to remember.

Sunday, April 12, 2015

It really to even write about anything as closer and closer we are about to be finished with school. I have a lot running through my mind so this should be easy but I don't have anything to say. I'm kindof stuck. 
I now work at kneaders and honeslty I love it. I seriously think it's an amazing job. Even it still being related to fast food. It's a whole different environment there. They had me start pastries at 5 am. I honeslty thought I was going to kill myself. Who in the hell wakes up that early?  I had the hardest time falling asleep early but surprisingly I didn't struggle waking up. Which is so weird because I can bearly wake up at 6:30 for school. Anyways i loved it. I loved not dealing with customers and all of that. It was different but a good different. I'm just not looking for the early morning in the summer 

Monday, March 30, 2015

For these next few months of school im trying to keep it together but I want this school year to be over with already. I seriously don't have motivation to do anything. I just wanna enjoy my last little bit of my high school life. I'm not to scared to grow up and do things on my own because I have already been doing that. The only disappointment I have is not being moved out after graduation. But good things come with time so I'm not that upset. 
I started a new job this weekend and honeslty I fell in love with it. Maria was working that night too and we work like across the street from eachother so after she got off she came and visited me. Oh I love Maria ❤️ But the atmosphere is so different from what I'm used to, I'm still kindof working with fast food but no grease is involved which is sooooo good. The people I work with now are so different from what I'm used to. I'm just liking the vibe it had going. 
My goal is to meet chris brown this summer God please make that happen 😩😩

Sunday, March 15, 2015

Isn't finding a good job or even a job hard? You end up having to grow up and take some responsibility and as much as you think you are prepared for it you never really are. For me getting a job right when I was 16 was really important. And I did it. I was hired at 15. I was tired of not having money, of always having to ask for money, so I decided to just do something about it. The whole process is the hardest, well I think so. You have to apply to so many places and sit for a call. I remember when I first started applying I applied to so many places and I didn't get one call. It sucked.  My aunt had told me to apply to McDonald's but I was like oh no I'm not going to work there. I'm not going to be that person who works at mcdonalds. Which is so funny now because that's how most of us think. Working at McDonald's is basically known for people who didn't finsih school or has nothing going for them in life, which is soooo not true. But at that time that's what I thought, but finally I just applied. A little while after I finally got a call and I was the happiest person. Now I just needed to prepare for my interview. Interviews are so weird, it's like you have to basically sell yourself. You go in there trying to make yourself seem so much better just to get this job. Which I did a great job at apparently.  But I think even the managers try to make theirselves seem better. Because my old boss was so nice in my interview and I was sooo happy for that but when I  started working he is the biggest "b" word ever.  Working at mcdoanlds for almost two years was horrible but so fun at the same time. I made so many new friends. I made so much money because mcdonalds was like my 2nd home & I made a lot of good memories there. But after awhile trying to find a new job was so important. So here I am going through the process once again. Which sucks. Go to college get yourself a high paying career so you don't need to jump from job to job.

Monday, March 9, 2015

So if you all didn't know I have this really bad addiction to coffee. Like I seriously have to have it every day. When I first started drinking coffee I would have so much energy and I would even want to run (when running isn't my thing). But now I have don't feel that way. It just makes me feel like myself. Its funny because when I'm upset or something I need a coffee to calm down.
When people tell me they don't like coffee obviously they aren't drinking the right kind of coffee.
The best coffee place is Daily Rise. Honestly they make the best coffee there. My favorite are "That's what she said"and "Vanilla Lace". They both taste the best when they are blended, its like you can taste the favor really well. But I'm not too picky I can drink it hot, on the rocks or blended. I prefer to go buy my coffee than make it af home, I don't know why because it's so much cheaper that way but it doesn't taste the same! I honestly spend the most of my money on coffee. Which is horrible. It's honeslty a drug and I can't stop. I try to stop and cut back but it's so impossible because I need my coffee in my hands at all times. Some people can drink it only in the mornings but I can drink it all day throughout the day it's just the best thing ever invented, honestly. Buy me some coffee and I'll love you forever